I Dreamed

BISMILLAH...

I dreamed you wrote me poetry, after breaking my broken heart;
you asked for my forgiveness while requesting I not depart...

I cried tears, it seemed, I had cried some years before;
and though my heart was aching I couldn't walk out the door...

You begin to kiss my tear filled eyes as you whispered sworn words you promised to keep;
but before I could succumb to the security of your arms I sadly awoke from my sleep...

Many would call this a warning, not wanting this dream to ever come true;
I see the wisdom in being reminded "the no one's perfect“ includes you...

Struggle is bound to be present each and every step of the way;
sandwiched between the promised ease granted to those who pray...

Yes dreams are meant for reflection, and reflect on this one I will;
remembering as are the joys of love, the pains of love are just as real...
may ALLAH be pleased...ameen

Perfect Striving

BISMILLAH...

Perfect we will never be despite how hard we try;
the best that we can hope for is the mercy of the Most High...

This shouldn't change our striving in fact it should push us to do more;
because worshipping and praising our CREATOR is all we were created for...

The devil is a liar who wants to convince us we can't change;
so we must seek constant refuge from satan in his CREATOR's name...

Deppresion is a state, when if allowed, will take root;
but a simple thing like gratitude will quickly give it the boot...

The road that leads to Heaven is by no means paved with ease;
the key is, when things get difficult, to seek counsel on our knees...

Remember satan is a liar whose goal is to lead our souls astray;
he whispers then withdrawals especially when it's time to pray...

Believers are to be good friends and gentle reminders for each other;
companions similar to family though not birthed by the same mother...

The idea we should be strong enough to travel this life's journey alone;
is again the handiwork of our avowed enemy who hates us to the bone...

May our CREATOR grant us guidance, forgiveness, protection, and mercy just to name a few;
as we strive to remain in a state of worship remembering that's exactly what we were created to do...

may ALLAH be pleased...ameen

Praise Busy

BISMILLAH...

Dear GOD suffice me with what is lawful so I am protected from all that is not;
please grant me contentment with what is and increase my faith because it's all I've got...

Surely I bear witness to the truth, that difficulty is sandwiched in relief;
but I'm in need of your protection NOW because satan's tampering with my belief...

I promise I'm not complaining or giving in to despair;
I'm just heavy with my reality so I'm letting it go in prayer...

This prayer I humbly offer asking each and every reader to do the same;
“Dear GOD despite the level of Amelah's difficulty keep her busy praising YOUR name..."

may GOD who has absolutely NO partners sons or daughters be pleased...ameen

Prayer vs Everything Else

BISMILLAH...

Prayer is better than sleep and everything else in our life;
which includes water money children parents and ones husband or wife...

Five we are commanded to offer before each day comes to an end;
though the devil will whisper different, this rule we're forbidden to bend...

The whole world is our Masjid so there's no reason to miss even one;
prayer is our spiritual air it aligns us like the moon and the sun....

These obligatory pauses are not up for discussion or debate;
during these appointed times all else in our world must wait...

From the moment we declare Al Islam as our chosen way;
we become 100% accountable for whether or not we pray...

Of all the deeds we offer, our prayers will be counted first;
neglecting them can cause our heavenly bubble to burst...

So on guard we must remain when it comes to our daily obligatory prayers;
and just in case they come up lacking we're encouraged to also offer spares...

Remain In Worship...may ALLAH be pleased...ameen

Deed Flow

BISMILLAH...

You chose me like dhikr, a reminder of GOD;
a spiritual helper on this journey we trod...

I embrace my duty to be used by our CREATOR;
knowing the reward compared to my efforts will be far Greater...

It's really not about the who, it's all about the why;
an attempt to rack up good deeds before the day I die...

The fact that your spirit moves me kinda messes with the flow;
posing the question, "am I doing it for my LORD or doing it for show?"

So I will strive to purify my intentions over and over again;
in hopes my deeds will be accepted as good ones in the end...
may ALLAH be pleased with my deeds...ameen

Let's Easily Proceed

BISMILLAH...

I don't beg to differ, but I will submissively lower my gaze;
as a trust I extend to you to guide me through this maze...

Not intending to become anymore than good spiritual friends;
was the beginning of our story that can have several ends...

Instead of running through stop signs, let's proceed with ease;
trusting our CREATOR while taking Divine counsel on our knees...

I promise to ride shotgun if we collectively decide to roll;
but for now I'll be the sweet critic who helps navigate your soul...

may ALLAH be pleased...ameen

Inspiration By Inspiration

BISMILLAH...

I'm not sure if it was safe to allow inspiration to take root this time;
planted thoughts branching out some in rhythm others in rhyme...

Roses, thorns, nectar, and sweet sacred places;
both tears and smiles mingled upon the affected faces...

Speechless about this matter I probably should remain;
but I know, oh to, well both the described joy & pain...

Many seasons come and then suddenly can't be found;
making more desirable the buds that bloom all year round...

The love lessons learned aren't always enough;
because forbidden dreams can easily make forgetting very tough...

As no one wants to forget the sweetness of that special kiss;
even when its poison slowly kills every ounce of superficial bliss...

Passion is the noun that often feels more like a verb;
impairing the best judgment more than liquor or smoked herb...

Sensual is the lingering scent stimulating the senses of the heart;
re-igniting toxic flames known to be deadly from the very start...


may ALLAH be pleased...ameen

Going For Three

BISMILLAH...

Solitude is the escape I can never seem to reach;
while the three that keep me going also inspire me to teach...

At times I'm half empty, then half the time fulfilled;
I seek to be content & not question being created free willed...

Just as I must trust the wisdom in not being granted the ability to fly;
I walk with firm faith, most days, to the divine rhythm of the Most High...

Never have the words I prayed been returned to me;
and I can't begin to count the blessings I daily receive for free... 

Still I long to be understood, in exchange for understanding;
by one who, when I can't see move or breathe, will care without demanding...

A helper in reaching my goals in this life and the next is all I require;
but until I discover such a one to ALLAH I will keep sending up this reoccurring desire....

 may  ALLAH be pleased...ameen

Nite Echoes

BISMILLAH...

Nites echo from space to space;
originating from an unexpected place...

Gentle strokes to slightly flawed esteems; 
revitalizes as much as the CREATOR deems...

One's favorite flavor this sweetness can easily come to be ;
but fear of overindulging makes the taster sample sparingly...

may ALLAH be pleased...ameen

My Polygamist Inclination

BISMILLAH...

I am more inclined towards polygamy then monogamy at this time in my life;
this will still be my inclination even if I'm his first wife;
my primary concern is that there be more ease than strife...

may ALLAH be pleased...ameen

Confession

Bismillah...

Though there are those who may think me wierd;
I'm easily mesmerized by a thick groomed beard...

Yet the thing that causes my gaze to unintentionally linger;
is a cat that has no problem spreading deen by speech or finger...

Him I'll humbly watch to see if taqwa is his most prized possessions;
which will determine if he'll become privy to my deepest confessions...

may ALLAH be pleased...ameen

Our Decree

Bismillah...

Though I hold the position of Queen bee;
I so desire to be under your given degree;
souls were created to connect not dwell free;
so let's continue preparing for our Divine decree...

may ALLAH be pleased...ameen

Faith In The Unseen

BISMILLAH...

Surely he is a chosen earth dweller;
An ancient and present time truth teller...

Our hearts are the vessels that actually met;
an impression made by GOD so we'll never forget...

Intertwined souls even though we are apart;
never ending is love engraved upon the heart...

As letters form words his spirit has sentenced me;
to a truth that'll remain whether we ever physically come to be...

Surmounted supplication is the only known solution;
for it grants the faithful supplicator spiritual restitution...

may ALLAH be pleased...ameen

A Controversial Piece of A Sista Like Me

Bismillah...

Surely, for you more may be merrier;
but for your soul it may be a bit scarier...

I'm super pass down if your current girl is;
but be sure you're ready for that balancing biz...

I'll always have her back because I want GOD to have mine;
so to infringe on any of her rights, I will always happily decline...

Like most I'd prefer monogamy, but it's not etched in stone;
because the life of Lady Khadijah (r) we can't easily clone...

and truthfully Aisha's (r) status is beyond adequate for me;
but only if the current occupant can wholeheartedly agree.... 

Don't get me wrong Bruh, your requirements we won't over look;
I'm just not frowning on what GOD has made lawful in our Holy book...

Sisters please don't become alarmed or turn up your nose;
I give you my word before GOD I'd never step on your toes...

Marriage is meant to bring souls together and form them as one;
so if your home is disrupted, spiritually for me, it won't be any fun...

I'm simply processing some thoughts about what's lawful in our way of life;
it's by no means a preamble or declaration for me to become your co-wife...

I'm just lyrical by nature so I poetically put to rhyme almost everything;
just as my desire to please my CREATOR trumps having a wedding ring...

may ALLAH be pleased...ameen 

The Affects of You

Bismillah...

Today has been the most trying;
I can't seem to stop my heart from crying;
out for you...

Unspoken words be our mutual protection;
as distance impedes my exploring this spiritual affection;
I have for you...

From means I could have never imagined we connected;
not only my mind, but my heart and soul have been affected;
by the essence of you...

For your constant reminders of why I ever came to be;
via words from Quran & Muhammad may GOD's peace be upon he; 
I appreciate you...

To take me away from myself I beg our CREATOR;
because though you're mine, I can't have you 'til later;
so I await you;
I await you;
by GOD, I await you...

may ALLAH grant us ease...Allahuma ameen

Cultivate to Elevate

Bismillah...

How do we stop the rhythm of a heart we didn't create;
realize, what GOD has decreed, none can alter or debate;
we spend so much time searching for the one who can relate;
but our relationship with our CREATOR is the one to cultivate;
only by GOD's Divine leave will our souls successfully elevate;
so let's beg HIM to keep us firm on the path that is straight;
knowing hell is our eternal abode if we die in any other state;
I beg you, don't hesitate because the angel of death won't wait...

may GOD who has absolutely NO partners sons or daughters protect us from a painful end...ameen

Injured Trust

BISMILLAH...

My heart wept along with my eyes; overwhelmed by my sister's cries... Never did I intended to injure her trust; causing the hinges of our friendship to rust... There's no acceptable excuses or reasons why; to better cherish such a treasure I promise to try... For GOD to be pleased is my ultimate aim; and when I miss the mark, I only have Amelah to blame...

may ALLAH be pleased...ameen

Last Chance

BISMILLAH...

We're coming to the end of this magnificent time;
to waste any part of it would be a spiritual crime...

Let's not sleep on this fleeting opportunity;
fill these last nights with GOD'S praise alone or with community...

Yes it's destined to come again, but there's no guarantee we'll still be around;
so eagerly reach for Ramadan's gifts in the only month they can be found...

may ALLAH be pleased...ameen

Spilt Secret

BISMILLAH...

I posses no degrees in the secular world;
Motherhood & serving my community has been my focus;
though this has MANY degrees...

I'm more of a dependant than I am an asset; 
adding more to my suitors plate;
 I'd be his possession and he my ease...

My attention has become imprisoned by his existence,
yet theres no basis for it to exist,
in the present...

Patience should have been his cloak;
secrecy would have been more fitting,
 but his mental spill has such a heavenly scent...

Now I dodge his heart's rhythm,
that's beating to a spiritual drum,
all our own...

CREATOR of us, knower of all things;
grant clarity to the love struck mind,
making us dependant on YOU alone...

may ALLAH be pleased...ameen

Rested Tears

Bismillah...

Last night I rested my tears on the shoulder of a sober soul;
feeling secure enough to let go, not needing to be in control...

In rethreading the fibers of my faith, by this hand, I was aided;
this gentle lesson in life living, was written before I was created...

Next step taken, on my merry way I continue to grow;
grateful for each experience the high ones and the low...

With contentment beauty can be found in the many things we encounter;
because contentment is the natural cure for any and every type of downer...

may ALLAH be pleased...ameen

Didn't Mean To But I Did

BISMILLAH...

I tried not to see you but I did;
though I attempt to dismiss my thoughts, you remain on my grid...

This causes my imagination to run away with me;
by the time I return, you've eased in just a little more closely...

Despite the invisible line in our sand that's vividly clear,
what GOD places on the heart, only GOD can make disappear...

Faith stimulated our connection, yet it's faith that keeps us at bay;
coupled with our ardent desire to not displease our CREATOR in any way...

When governed by lower desires genuine affection transforms into lust;
so we avoid forbidden encounters, and in GOD we place our entire trust...

What is meant to be will inevitably manifest;
this truth allows us to lay our every burden to rest...

As I turn with my gaze lowered I can spiritually feel you doing the same;
both finding peace and contentment in the sweetness of praising GOD's name...

may ALLAH be pleased...ameen

Reality Contentment

Bismillah...

Breathless I am not, though you are breathtaking;
and though I'm tempted to, my convictions I'm not forsaking...

There's a way in which I want such a thing to be done;
and I'm as set on my decision as a day's declining sun...

No need to rush into a matter, not even by intention;
what's decreed will manifest without it ever being mentioned... 

So, I breathe into the thoughts of every possibility;
finding contentment at the core of my current reality...

may ALLAH be pleased...ameen

Just A Little Scary

BISMILLAH...

Our unexpected euphoric encounters; 
this natural level of connectivity,
slightly scares me, 
so I humbly 
turn it all over to the ALMIGHTY 
and I will await HIS Divine decree...

may ALLAH be pleased...ameen

I would...

Bismillah...

I would marry me for the giving portion of my heart;
I would marry me because I strive to finish what I start...

I would marry me because I encourage ALLAH's Praise;
I would marry me to enjoy my sometimes girly ways...

I would marry me because when it comes to truth I'm bold;
I would marry me because when given, my word's as good as gold...

I would marry me to fulfill the other half of my deen;
but only if, after istikaarah, I was inclined to by the Unseen!

may ALLAH be pleased...ameen 

Roped Belief

Bismillah...

The pirates would have gotten me if not for the hole;
the boat Khither(a) dismantled is similar to my soul...

The world, like the pirates, want possession of my treasures;
so it strives to distract me with sinful & temporary pleasures...

As I sit on the shore of spirituality awaiting my relief,
I struggle to hold tight to the rope tied to my belief...

Help is on the way because my CREATOR's promises are true;
and this hole will soon be sealed with the mercy of ALLAHU...

may ALLAH be pleased...ameen